Saturday, December 18, 2010
Silence is Golden
For one thing, it takes the pressure off. If you aren't fighting with the person across from you to get a word in on the conversation, you relinquish the responsibility to keep it going. You can rest your mind (and even let it wander to happier places) when you aren't consumed with deciding what you want to chip in next and anxiously awaiting the opening to do so. It's also great for information gathering. You can learn a lot more about a person than they originally intended to tell you as they scramble to fulfill their responsibility and keep the words flowing in the empty space between you. Thus, the more comfortable you become with silence, the more likely you are to also become the bearer of many interesting secrets and stories concerning the people around you. If you've ever walked away from a conversation and wondered "Why did I tell them that?", chances are you were in the company of a well practiced master of the art.
At the same time, listening has an endearing effect with those around you. They begin to see your comments and opinions as more wise and important, mainly because (like fine diamonds) there are a limited number of them and they take some time to dig out. Whether or not you have actually put more time or consideration into them, it will appear that you have. You're silence in the midst of boisterous discussions will be assumed to be one full of contemplation and consideration. All with minimal effort on your part.
Best of all, as time goes on you will come to realize that as your skill at listening improves so does your general knowledge! Many of the people you likely encounter on a daily basis have skills, knowledge, and experience in areas unlike your own, and if you're a skilled listener you can pick up a few things. An elderly gentleman once taught me the proper way to bake a giant yam (making sure it is evenly and thoroughly done). I don't like yams, but if I marry someone who does and we're lucky enough to find giant ones, now I will know how to prepare them. I also learned, from my dear grandmother, how to make someone pass out by applying pressure to a certain spot on their neck. She used the technique primarily for entertainment on dates (which is a complete and separate story worth listening to), but I would imagine the same technique could be applied in a safety situation. Thus, if I am ever bored or endangered to an extreme degree, I know one method for addressing it. And finally, after a long conversation with a missionary in Sub-Saharan Africa, I came to learn that there are actually women in this world that can pee standing up. That's right...Look out men, pretty soon we'll discover a way to make you carry the babies.
Safety, entertainment, baking tips, cultural anomalies...just a few of the rewards that listening has to offer.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Civic Duty and the changing seasons
I am blessed to have work, and actually really enjoy meeting new people all the time...it's refreshing and liberating, and often affords the time needed to finish all the books I have delved partially into over the past few months. I can't say I am a fan of Business Casual, but unless I want to work as a youth minister or construction worker I figure I'll have to eventually learn to love the attire (although I have always had a knack for directing traffic and setting up orange cones in near perfect lines). At least I have one more year of freedom in that regard. I will travel the world looking more like an Eddie Bauer bum than anything business related.
Though I have a lot of funds yet to be raised, and expensive gear I may need to sell a few organs to buy, I'm taking it one day at a time and trusting in the God who's taken me this far. OK, fine, I also indulge in the occasional 7-11 Pumpkin Spice knock-off in moments of stress...it's strictly seasonal and Oh So perfect in the crisp weather.
I have already made some great strides; completing the necessary vaccinations, purchasing international insurance, securing a 6 month supply of malaria medication, and raising almost half of the funds thanks to many loving and generous family members and friends. My life can feel crazy, but is TRULY blessed:)
World Race Training Camp...WOW
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Fall...Why, hello there
Thursday, September 16, 2010
One of Those Days
It started when I arrived to my temp job and the front door was locked. I stood there for a good few minutes as though I could stare the lock into submission and the door would obligingly open itself. When this didn't happen I headed back to my car, called one of the people I work with (who informed me that if no one showed up they would be arriving in 20), and then tried to decide what to do in the mean time. I considered driving down the street to the post office box to send some letters, or heading to the gas station for an energy drink, and in the process got distracted by an oatmeal bar I found in my glove box. As I munched away a co-worker arrived and saved the day...and the remainder of my oatmeal bar.
At lunch I headed to the court house to find a date for Friday...oh how I wish I wasn't joking. I really went to get a form for adding pages to your passport. It took me longer than is excusable to figure out the maze that leads you to the metal detector machine, during which i actually got PASSED by a swift old lady and a kind-faced Hispanic family.
I made it up to the correct floor, got the form, and headed back to the ground floor where I exited the wrong door and found myself boxed in by security gates and a building on each side. About this time I was thinking "what kind of cruel genius architect drew up this place?". Thankfully two officers were there and kindly pointed out the clearly marked exit that had stared me in the face as I exited the elevator...I'm pretty sure they wanted to drug test me on the spot, but even in heels I'm quick and scurried away before they made a move.
The afternoon has proven uneventful, but it is amazing how a multi-line phone can out smart you...making you question the wisdom of your investment in a college education and our culture's continual push for "smart technology". With smarts comes sass, and I prefer to think I have the upper-hand in that relationship.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Abundant giving
There are so many family members and dear friends who have given so much to me in so many ways over these past few years that I wish there was a way to let them into my head to see and feel firsthand how much it has affected me. All I can say is thank you, if it weren't for the strength, love, truth, prayer, and challenges you've given me I would not be able to pursue my dreams.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
In the mean time...
My biggest fear is forgetting an important detail for my upcoming mission trip, or not raising enough money to go... but I try to remind myself that worrying is like sitting in a rocking chair...it occupies your time but gets you nowhere....Ok, to be honest I don't really say it in those words in my head, but that sounds more eloquent than what actually goes on in the dark recesses of my brain.
For now I am focusing on finding enough work to pay the bills for the months of Sept. to Jan., and enjoying the sunshine out the window. There is also a homeless man down the way that has provided some entertainment.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Oh, the Places We'll Go!
In January 2011 I will be participating in the World Race, an 11 month mission experience that will be visiting 11 countries for a month each and joining with the efforts of established ministries in each location. I feel God's hand tugging mine in this direction and feel drawn to this specific trip for a few reasons. The first few countries on this trip are heavily Muslim and hot spots for child sex trafficking. I cannot eloquently explain why, but I really want to learn how ministry is done in these circumstances and what approaches are used to help (especially) women and children.
We will also be visiting 3 countries in Africa and doing a lot of work with HIV/ AIDS education, care, prevention, etc. An area in which I have a little more exposure and am excited to broaden my knowledge.
The last leg of our trip will be spent in numerous eastern european countries; many areas where faith seems to have gone dormant. I am excited to see the ways ministries in this region are working to infuse life and passion back into the idea of religion and Christianity.
I am excited to embark on this next chapter of my life, but struggling to wrap my mind around all the preparations and fundraising I need to do in the meantime. My mantra is quickly evolving into "One day at a time, just one day at a time".
Thursday, July 29, 2010
What a Journey!
Saturday night we had dinner with the founder of Missions of Hope International, Mary Kamau. After we finished our stew and chapati, we each went around and talked about our expectations coming into the trip...how they differed from reality, ways those expectations were exceeded or not met, and what we've learned through it all.
For me, I felt somewhat prepared for many of the basic expectations because I have been to Kenya, Nairobi, and Missions of Hope before. The surprises, difficulties, and victories were found in carrying out our tasks in the Business Development Services (BDS) department. For example, aspects I thought would be simple, such as filling out the form with an individual, proved to be much more time consuming and difficult than I had anticipated. However, collecting the completed forms and writing the two-paragraph profiles took less time.
God really taught me about his faithfulness this summer. I really learned that nothing is too small or insignificant, or too vast and overwhelming for God to handle. He is waiting and wanting to help you through the struggles and trials, you just have to ask Him and allow Him to do so. So often I'll catch myself trying to fix all my troubles, struggles, and short-comings on my own...with my own strength, discipline, and hard work....when it is much healthier and effective, and much less exhausting, to ask God for his help in the first place. He is much more capable than I, and knows infinitely more than I ever will.
Whether it's the crippling day-to-day toil to survive that is witnessed in Mathare Valley slums, or overcoming our own insecurities to reach people and place other's needs above our own, He is anxiously waiting for us to relinquish control so that He can transform our lives and communities in ways we never thought possible. The Gospel is alive and active, sharper than a double-edged sword, and coursing through the veins of Christ's body of believers all around the globe.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Odds and Ends
It is SUCH a great feeling to have accomplished more than I had thought possible, and for everyone to lend a helping hand in these last few days. As our time dwindles down it gives me peace to know the hardest parts are complete and all we have left are the finishing touches.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Don't Blink
Though I am excited at the progress we've made and the sight of the finish line, I am very sad our time in Kenya is almost at an end. We have spent these last two weeks eating dinner with many of the staff we spend our days with and preparing ourselves mentally to say "good bye", but I know Friday (our last work day) will be a tearful event.
One thing I am sure of is the continued growth and success of this organization. The founder, Mary Kamau, recently spoke at the Christian Missionary Convention in the U.S.A., and the principles and love that began this beacon of hope to those in the slums continue to touch and transform an ever-increasing number of lives. I have been so blessed to get to witness and lend a hand to such an amazing group of people.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Simple and Selfless
I began typing up profiles of the micro-business owners this morning (in the library...the one place in this area that ensures low volume and minimal dust:) and I simply had to share this woman's story:
Loise Njoroge is a 67 year old widow living in the area known as Huruma in the Mathare Valley slum. She works as a landlord, an investment she started with just ksh 100 ($1.25) given to her by family. Loise is hoping to receive a loan so she can invest in more plots to rent out.
As she ages it becomes more and more difficult for Loise to care for her own needs along with the grandchildren she is providing for while her son struggles with unemployment. She has suffered with diabetes for a long time; and covering the costs of medication, day-to-day living, and the needs of her grand children is a constant struggle. More than anything, Loise’s goal is to be able to afford the school fees for her grand children to receive a good education to the highest levels. Even though she must toil in her old age, when most people in my home country are able to relax and slow down, her hope is found in being able to make life better for others.
This woman who has worked hard all her years just to survive is still caring for people during a time in her life when she should be the one being cared for.
I find it humbling that when asked what her personal goals were, or what she wished for, her answer was simple and selfless...to be able to pay for her grand children's education. She is just one example of the many ways in which I am constantly reminded how blessed my life has been and how much I have to be thankful for.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Hello July !
After celebrating America's independence with taco salad, cake, and fireworks that are illegal in the land of my forefathers, we went to sleep and awoke to re-enter the land of Swahili, pick pockets, and cross cultural miscommunication.
The week got off to a rough start for me. I felt nauseated, feverish, and ached all over. After trying (and failing) to sleep it off, I was driven to the clinic where I received a rainbow of antibiotics. Thankfully I slept a few hours more and when I woke up my fever was gone and my head had stopped pounding.
The rest of the week was spent typing up profiles for many of the micro-business owners I have been interacting with over the past month and a half. It is a tedious task to type for hours on end, but knowing the possible impact it will have on the future of their business and livelihood is a great refresher and motivator.
Progress feels slow, but it is steady, and I have to keep reminding my American mind that "efficiency" is a relative term. Time is soaring by, as it always does, and I cannot believe it is winding down so quickly. I am committed to soaking up every last bit of it that is remaining :)
Monday, July 5, 2010
Why they do it
We arrived to our dusty destination; a very small town with cows roaming the street, and met up with Sarah. Sarah and her husband own and run a scrap metal business and from the looks of her home (which was quite humble but had more than one room) business is doing well. As we sat and chatted, eating the goat stew and rice she prepared for our visit, Sarah shared with us that her husband found out the day before that he has cancer.
The loan officer I'm teamed with, Virginiah, explained as Sarah left to get drinks, that being diagnosed with cancer here in Nairobi is a (quickly approaching) death sentence. People in their financial situation don't really have a chance to try to fight it.
I didn't know what to say...this woman had found out less than 24 hours prior to our visit that her loved one and provider has very little time left on this earth, and she will be left to pick up the pieces once that short time evaporates. I wished for the millionth time since arriving here that I could fix the problem this delicate woman was facing. However, the one way I know we can help her is the exact reason we stopped by, to assess the needs of her business and provide her a loan that will help it grow when she needs those resources and stability the most.
We stayed as long as we could and listened...even though I couldn't understand much...and I prayed for Sarah, her husband, and her family. She thanked us for coming and hugged us before we headed back.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Steady Progress
Next week when we collect all the completed profiles, the other two interns and I will work as fast as possible to complete profiles for them all. We will also begin traveling around to each individual's business in order to get pictures to use on the profiles as well. There is a mountain of work to be done, but we're excited at our progress and fired up to continue!!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Weekend Getaway - Joska
Upon our arrival we ate a quick lunch and went out to the field to meet and play with the ~600 kids that attend school there (mainly grades 4-8). Some of us played soccer, others jumped rope, and a few learned new versions of Red Rover....I introduced a few kids to ultimate Frisbee:)
Though I instantly made 5 friends, the concept did not translate well, so I gave in and jumped rope until I could jump no more.
Later on I had the three girls holding my hands (Milicent, Christine, and Anne) walk me around their play area as they taught me new Swahili words and showed me some of their favorite dance moves. After a break for dinner at 7pm, we waited for the children to finish their devotion time and go to their dorms for the night so we could start our bonfire.
We had brought the makings for smores and didn't want to start them if we didn't have enough to share......we didn't wait long enough:) As soon as kids saw the fire starting we had a crowd of around 100 on our laps, braiding our hair, playing with our cameras, and asking us questions about our lives in America. It was SO much fun...I had two girls squished on my chair with me and one sitting on a rock next to me laying her head on my lap. We all sang, joked, and danced until 10pm and when the children were scooted off to bed we enjoyed smores under a star-filled sky.
The next morning we attended church at the chapel on the schools' campus and ate lunch with a team of teachers from Oregon. We then rested for a little while and said our goodbyes. I was deeply touched when Milicent and Christine came to find me, presented me with drawings and notes they made for me, and latched onto me. I sat with them, held their hands, and hugged them until we had to board the van and almost lost my composure when Milicent's eyes filled with tears. I know I will get to see these two beautiful girls once more before I leave, but at that moment I just wanted to stay and hold them until they fell into a restful sleep.
It is not always easy to see how you are helping or what God's purpose is, but moments like this weekend are precious glimpses of eternity I think He gives us in order to sustain us through the routine and the rough spots.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Deciphering their stories
Today I talked with Sarah, a mother of two running a water business. Her ultimate business goal is to make enough money to buy her own plant and become a large scale distributor.
Sarah became a widow in 2000 after her husband lost his battle with cerebral cancer. Her strength and determination to save enough money to pay for her children's education, despite the daily struggle to meet the most basic needs, is inspiring. Her hope lies in providing them a better life and opportunities than she ever experienced.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Down to Business
One of our main goals in the BDS department this summer is to get every client's (about 700 total) profile and a picture of them with their business to create an online giving program on CMF's (Christian Missionary Fellowship) website. This would allow someone in the USA, or around the world, to go online, read micro-business owner's stories and infomation on their businesses, and (if they choose) to offer a loan to any client they choose...very similar to Kiva and some other organizations involved in micro-finance.
It has been difficult communicating with people since many of the people are uneducated and understand very little english....and my swahili is equivalent to around a 2 year old Kenyan child:)...but through the help of MoHI staff translators, we are moving in the right direction.
One of the questions we ask on the profile form is 1) what are your personal goals (for you, your children, family, etc.)?
Almost every single response is the same...To provide food and education for the person's children so that the children can live a better life. Another common response is to succeed in business so as to provide the money needed to help sick family members.
It seems no matter where you are in the world, or how much you have been blessed with, our hopes, desires, and measures of success lie on our ability to accomplish similar things.
I am SO honored and excited to get to be a part of the effort to help these people accomplish some of life's basic goals.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Zebulon
In the afternoon we 'took lunch' at the MoHI school and then went to visit Zebulon. Zebulon is a man who has been handicapped from birth with legs that are about half the length they should be and of no use to him. Zebulon and his wife use to live in a nicer area of the slum. He would use a donated wheelchair to go into downtown each day and sell candy while his wife walked to the rich area of town to do laundry for money. Then Zebulon was hit by a car (not terribly uncommon) and was in the hospital for a few months before returning to his humble home and being bed-ridden for 3 months.
Zebulon's wife continues to wash clothes for money and on days when he feels ok, Zebulon crawls to his door to sell small packages of peanuts to anyone who passes by. However, the thing that stood out to me the most about Zebulon was not his crippled legs, or the notable scars from the accident, it was the light that shines through his face. I knew before he told us that Zebulon was saved...the light of Christ shines through his every expression. Despite the fact that the only view he sees of this world, when he is able to crawl to it, is that of a vast slum; there is a hope and joy in his every word and expression that is unmistakably that of the hope found in Christ.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Siku Ngema (Good Day)
One child we visited was named Benjamin. He had been sick with a sore throat, as we confirmed upon entering the home. His mother's name is Mary and she sat and talked with us while her 3 small children stared poked at the mzungus (white people)...aka us...she nursed her new born while she told us briefly about her family.
The parents are both born again Christians. Mary's husband goes into town to find work and currently she stays with the new born. Currently they house 15 people in their 10x10 tin shack...I still can't comprehend how that many people could fit into the space, let alone sleep there.
Her three small children all attend the Pangani Center for school and she is thankful for the place where they receive a good education and two meals a day. When we asked her for any prayer requests before leaving she didn't even mention anything relating to their meager situation, her only request was that God bless MoHI so that they can continue to grow and invite more and more children from the slums into their schools.
I am once again reminded...these people may be without a lot of things, but they are never without hope...or the joy that overflows from it.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Karibu Kenya
We were introduced to the staff and even got to walk through 'village 1' in Mathare. Although I have been here before, the sights, smells, and volume of trash are shocking to the senses. We drew a croud of small children everywhere we walked. They would yell "Mzungu", which is the term for a white person, and run to us with arms open wide. One girl in our team even had a child lick her arm...you just never know what will happen on a day in Mathare.
Friday, May 21, 2010
About to take flight
As the time to return draws near, I find myself remembering more of of the sights, smells, and experiences that had previously evaded my thoughts.
My heart is swelling with expectation and excitement over what is about to transpire, and I look forward to sharing as much as I can express in written words and photographs with everyone who has helped me along this journey.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Rhythm and Soul
Side note: I use the term "dancing' loosely....the actual movement involved a slight bending of the knees and swaying left and right, close to, if not actually on, the beat of the song.
It is then that I had an epiphany...dancing is build in to our souls. This baby, who can't understand much beyond colors, hunger, and sleepiness, instinctively began moving at the sound of music. The Creator has weaved the desire to dance into our innermost being, and the spirit is anxious to bust a move.
So GO FOR IT!...shake what your mama gave ya, rock the white man's overbite, robot, break dance, pop, lock, and drop it, two-step, shoulder lean, and shimmy....move to whatever rhythm your soul desires....the good, the bad, and the ugly....we were born to do it:)
